tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10422260793288678022024-03-14T02:40:28.628-04:00Otto Family AdventureWelcome to the Otto Family Adventure!Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.comBlogger133125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-56239335633186732662013-11-17T18:59:00.005-05:002013-11-17T18:59:53.524-05:00New Blog!We've moved! Our new blog is <a href="http://www.frontporchliving.info/">www.frontporchliving.info</a>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-73888542931548605232012-06-04T21:22:00.000-04:002012-06-04T21:25:21.351-04:00I Remember....This has been a week full of lasts.<br />
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Last trip to the Bodegona (local grocery store).<br />
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Last coffee time with a treasured friend.<br />
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Last time to sing and play with a worship team I love.<br />
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Last time to drive through the cobblestoned streets of Antigua.<br />
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And in those lasts, it has been a time of remembering the firsts.<br />
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I remember the first weeks I spent here and how I thought I'd never, ever conquer these streets with their confusing one ways, their lack of street signs (navigating by landmarks is a must), and their oh-so-strategically placed speed bumps and cement blocks and ridiculously tight parallel parking "opportunities." I thought I'd never learn to get somewhere without being lost. And don't get me started on the offers to "watch my car" for me, the guards with shotguns. But...I did it. I conquered...or at least survived...Antigua's streets and even ventured into the No Man's Land of driving in Guatemala City.<br />
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I remember the first time I whizzed through the Bodegona in less than 10 minutes. Of course, that doesn't count the waiting in16 people deep line time. I learned to actually NOT be surprised that the rice and brown sugar were sold next to the milk, or that said milk was already past its sell-by date. I learned to celebrate when the oregano I needed was actually in stock!<br />
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I remember the first time I sang in Spanish with April (our worship leader). It was hard enough to play and sing in English...but Spanish? Gulp. How would that ever work? And now, when I hear worship songs during my visits to the States, I sing along to them in Spanish rather than English.<br />
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I remember the first time I went to the market with my friends Dayle and Tonja. I followed them through the labyrinth of booths and thought I would never, ever be able to navigate the market, much less bargain and carry my 30 plus pound bag of produce out. And now, I go every Saturday and buy amazing produce for my family and...well, ok...I don't carry it. I bring Steve to do that part, and every Saturday the ladies in the market laugh when I call him my "muchacho." But I do it.<br />
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So I'll go back to the States feeling stronger, more confident, more sure that I can do hard things. And isn't that what life is? There are so many hard things....so many good and wonderful things...but pain and hurt and just plain life all mixed in with that. And often we think we can't possibly EVER do THAT thing...but we do. We are carried from strength to strength by our faith, by our friends, by our family, by love, by grace...and we find that we can do things we never thought we could.<br />
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Thank you, Guatemala, for teaching me that I can be more than I thought I could ever be. Thank you for helping me grow up, helping me see outside of myself, helping me learn that I don't need to be afraid of the next challenge ahead.<br />
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And that I can now parallel park with the best of them.<br />
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<br />Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-12548021523879537312012-05-06T08:07:00.001-04:002012-05-06T08:07:08.889-04:00The Big Green Bowl<br />
I was washing dishes. Something it seems I am always doing. And side note here: why is there a magnetic attraction between a newly emptied, clean sink and newly dirtied dishes? I'm fairly sure that the Evil Dirty Dish Force is out there, whispering throughout the house, "Mom just finished all the dishes! Quick! Dirty another one! The sink must not get lonely!"<br />
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So, in the midst of my dish-doing, I was absentmindedly washing something I use every day. The Big Green Bowl. Now, this baby is a monster. I have no idea where I actually got it. I think it was part of some elaborate slap-on special at the Bodegona (Definition: A slap-on special is when two items which are remarkably disimilar are slapped together with tape and sold as a hey-buy-this-thing-you-need-and-get-something-you-don't-need-at-all gimmick. The best example I can give is dish soap slapped together with refried black beans). So. I have owned this bowl for the four years I've lived here, and it started out as a sink substitute. Our house had a small, single sink, so I'd wash the dishes in one and then stick them in the bowl to rinse. Then, it got promoted. It became my disinfecting bowl.<br />
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Waaaiiit...maybe I should explain, in the rare chance that not everyone has a disinfecting bowl. You see, the good news is that we can buy amazing, beautiful, inexpensive, deliciously ripe produce every week from our mercado (market). The bad news? Well, let's just say that I've seen all manner of rodent, insect and reptile crawling all over said produce in the market. One time I saw an iguana in the fruit. Yep. Not even kidding. So, because of that, and because of the fertilization used (a.k.a manure) and the less than sanitary methods of transporting the produce, there is a huge risk of parasites being transmitted. Everything we buy has to be more than just rinsed off, a la Publix. First, I use water to rinse the especially dirty things, like herbs, and then I use filtered water and some sort of liquid cleaner to soak the veggies or fruit. I've done this for 4 years, and while it might not sound like a big deal, it can make cooking dinner a challenge.<br />
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I'll spare you the details of the treks to refill the water filter, the frustration when the water goes out, the way I'll just skip a recipe if it calls for too many herbs/ingredients to disinfect, but it is fair to say that this Big Green Bowl (BGB) has heard many a word of anger and angst coming from my lips over the years. It has been filled and refilled and dropped and cleaned and had more than one unwelcome insect fished out of it.<br />
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So, in my dishwashing moment the other day, I thought..."I can FINALLY get rid of this bowl! I'll be able to go to the store and just buy something to eat and wipe it off, or rinse it off and plop it in my dinner!" I was euphoric! Visions of driving my car over BGB, burning it (does plastic burn well? nevermind), dancing around it and burying it in the depths of the trash raced through my mind! Yes. I admit I might have extraordinarily strong feelings on the matter. But. But....<br />
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Maybe I should. Because the thing is, I don't want to forget. I want to remember how it feels to work hard for my family's dinner, to think about where the food came from and how there are people who grow it who have so much less than I.<br />
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I want to remember, as I traverse the beautifully laid out produce aisles of Trader Joe's, that there was a day when I pushed through crowds of people and walked over not clean, tiled floors, but rotting produce and trash in order to buy my food.<br />
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When a sweet friend asked me today, "What can I pray about for you, heading back to the States?" I didn't even have to stop and think about it. I knew. It was that I will remember. That my kids will remember. That we won't just slip back into the "American dream," but we will be forever humbled and grateful and changed by what we have seen.<br />
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So I think I'll keep that stupid bowl. Because with that sitting in my kitchen there is a constant, tangible reminder of the things I hope never to forget. It will look right at home next to those dirty dishes.<br />
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When we (and yes, it is "we," because it involves the whole family!) were in the military, we knew that we would only be stationed somewhere for 2-3 years. When we met someone, one of the first questions we asked was, "How long have you been here?" If they were already a year and a half into their time at a base, we knew that there wasn't a lot of time left to get to know them. But, we learned to take the risk. To open our hearts and jump right in and make the most of whatever time we had with someone. </div>
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I lost track of how many goodbye parties were had, of how many hugs and promises to keep in touch were given. And it never, ever got easier. </div>
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Now, we face that dreaded word again. Living in Guatemala has reminded me of the feeling of being part of a military community. There is a fraternity of sorts among our missionary friends here. Our missionary friends can laugh with us at the cultural differences and yes, frustrations, we face. They can cry with us through misunderstandings and miscommunications. They understand what it is to not know how much money will be in your bank account next month. They (and don't read this if you're squeamish) will sit in a public place and discuss the lab reports of your parasite tests with you. They get what it is to miss family, to miss the holidays, to make new traditions and do your best to make it just as wonderful when, really, a piece of your heart is always with your loved ones far away on those days. They GET how wonderful Starbucks is...and how being there just feels like a taste of home. No judgment at all.</div>
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I think...no, I know...that our four years here have taught us priceless lessons and made us grow up.<br />
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My kids don't take the little things in life for granted.<br />
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I have become an expert driver. Ok, scratch that. A reckless driver.<br />
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We have experienced what real, fresh-from-the-farm bananas taste like.<br />
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We've learned to live without our favorite TV shows and, somehow, survive! And learned to play games and take walks together.<br />
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We've learned what a luxury it is in most of the world to own a car, to have running water, to have pretty consistent electricity and internet, to own books!<br />
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We can and need to celebrate the multitude of ways in which we have changed. We want to leave with gratitude, with knowing that, despite the small ways in which we have tried to make a difference in lives here, we have been the ones changed. Rocked. Flipped Upside Down. In such a way that I hope we never recover. </div>
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Thank you, Guatemala. We will carry you with us forever. What you have given us is worth the goodbye.</div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-85799424628224946442012-03-14T22:51:00.000-04:002012-03-14T22:58:33.212-04:00Girls Just Wanna Have Fun<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Coffee. Gym. School. Errands. Except, I added in a visit to Paso a Paso...a little school in the village of San Antonio Aguas Calientes, a school where many of our missions teams have gone to help.<br />
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I rode a bumpy and completely-off-the-map ride with a group of IDC women through the town and entered the small complex. I'm always amazed at how simple these schools are. No metal detectors. No choir rooms. No gymnasium. And no soccer field...I thought. Until a little lady, clothed in indigenous garb, began to spray down the dirt-covered common area that was smaller in size than my living room. She wet it with a hose until it wasn't as dusty, and then...then...the real business of the day began.<br />
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I had thought we were there to be thanked for all of the work our teams had done, but, in reality, we were there to be schooled. In futbol.<br />
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I joined my team of ladies who were nearly all dressed in skirts and I thought I, as a runner, would hold my own. Boy was I wrong. These ladies work hard. All day. Every day for their families. And they know how to play hard too.<br />
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I lost count of how many times my elbow hit the cement block wall or how many times my shin was kicked or how many times the ladies yelled "mano!" (hand) or argued vehemently with the referee (aka the poor man who got roped into the job) over a goal.<br />
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These ladies were all in. We laughed (I couldn't tell if they were laughing AT or WITH me), and we ultimately won, despite a few toddlers wandering onto the "field" and a few kicks into dusty corners or fragile trees.<br />
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There was no spiritual lesson, nothing I could give them. But as we played hard and then stood around afterwards and simply talked, I realized that that is all that is required. To talk. To share. To be in the moment with them. Not to think about all I COULD have been doing back at my house, but to laugh with them at the shortness of my name (most Guate women have 5 or more names...keeping their father's name and adding on), talking about how many kids we had, making jokes about our cultural differences. That was all they wanted. And all I wanted.<br />
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They didn't want a program or an extravagant, spreadsheet-laden plan. They wanted to spend the afternoon with some ladies who, despite their differences in skin color, were actually remarkably similar. Kids. Food. Exercise. Politics.<br />
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God, help me let go of my agendas and simply be present where You are working. In a village. On a dirty soccer field. Not for myself, but for the love of people and of You. Amen.Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-12420301217874888522012-03-05T20:12:00.001-05:002012-03-05T20:57:57.095-05:00Sink or SwimIn every family, there are stories that, over the years, have grown and mushroomed into tales of near-legend which no longer bear much resemblance to actual fact. My family is no exception.<br />
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Perhaps my dad's favorite with which to regale guests at the family's B&B, church, let's face it...complete strangers is the story of his grandson's birth. I had been in labor for a mere 36 hours in a military hospital. For you civilians, this means that your doctors are garbed in camouflage and you address your doctor as Colonel. Very comforting. After much discussion and debate, a surgical delivery was decided upon. But then the committee of officers decided to discuss some more. Don't mind me. I'm just sitting here in my hospital bed in excruciating pain. After many more back-and-forths and votes and talks, my mom politely asked to speak to Dr. Colonel in the hallway and informed him (did I mention politely?) that it was time. We'd made a decision. It needed to happen. Now. Politely. And it did.<br />
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Of course, when Dad tells this story now, Mom has put a Five Star General into a chokehold and has taken siege of the hospital by the mere sound of her voice.<br />
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My older brother has inherited the embellishment gene and likes to embarrass....er....amuse my parents by informing everyone that HE learned to swim this way: my parents dropped him off at the local YMCA whereupon his captors...er...instructors simply looked him in the eye and said, "Time to swim." And then they dropped him in. Sink or swim buddy.<br />
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My mom always corrects the story with a kindler, gentler, possibly more truthful version. But my brother's story always gets the laugh.<br />
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His experience, fictional or not, has come to my mind a lot recently. Life is a strange and circuitous route of brief periods of calm, where I am simply floating, and then other stretches of Class 4 white water rapids where there is no time to catch my breath and no time to even think about how to paddle. Instinct and a lifetime of habits, good or bad, kick in. When the stretch of calm comes again, I can look back, inhale for a moment and think about how I handled that intense water. But I can't think for long, because there is always another rapid around the bend.<br />
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The last few years, with their health difficulties, cultural challenges, financial stresses and relational navigations have felt like one rapid after another. I was talking with a friend about it recently and she mentioned that she often felt guilty for being stressed over her problems when so many have it so much worse. It's true. I feel that same twinge. But the thing is, my deep waters ARE deep waters to me. And hers are deep to her. No one is given the same boat, the same river or the same passengers.<br />
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I don't have the "Sunday School" answer for that. Many people will quote things like Romans 8:28 or say, "This too shall pass." And that might bring comfort to them. For me, I have found strength in two vastly different phrases. First, simply repeating, "This too shall be made right," a lyric repeated to me not long ago (Derek Webb song by the same name). I might not always believe it, but I say it until I mean it, and I can see the calm waters ahead. Justice. Wrongs made right. Mercy. They will all come someday. And then there's the less-spiritual-but-just-as-helpful Spanish phrase I hear a lot..."poco a poco." Little by little. Not just surviving but sticking my oar back into the water even when my arms are exhausted. Moving forward. Forward being the key word.<br />
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So I'll keep paddling and maybe, in those rare moments of calm, I'll turn to the others in my boat and say, "Let me tell you a story about these rapids I went through once." And proceed to exaggerate my way through the tale. Because what's a good story without a little embellishment.<br />
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<br />Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-50040190743690251102012-01-10T20:05:00.002-05:002012-01-10T20:05:50.784-05:00Low ExpectationsI have one New Year's resolution, and it may sound a wee bit odd.<br />
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On New Year's Eve, we decided to do something as a family, since we'd had a lot of time apart travelling the past few weeks. We packed everybody up in the car, swimsuits on and goggles in hand. Now, you have to understand that we are former Floridians and we loooove a good swim in the pool or the ocean. There, we used to live in a neighborhood with a community pool which, upon our arrival, quickly became a just-our-family-pool as the retiree neighbors ran away. I'll never understand why the arrival of 3 kids with noodles, squirt guns, homemade parachutes, boats and rafts would bother them. But I digress.</div>
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Ok...I was quite disappointed, but, having been a mom for just a few years, didn't let it show and turned to console my children...only to find that they were completely nonplussed by the whole thing. Their dad informed them that we would try another hotel, so we loaded all the children plus aforementioned gear and towels back into the car and drove to our next destination.</div>
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I really, really wanted to take advantage of the fact that my kids were outside and say some of my favorite four letter words as my non-self-lighting gas oven decided to have a mind of its own and shoot up to 400 degrees, thereby burning aforementioned bread. And just yesterday, it would barely get up to 300.<br />
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I was going to have a little pity party about how, even after spending such a long time in the kitchen, one or more of my sweet, beloved children would certainly find something in the dinner that he didn't "care for." Someone would ask, ever-so-politely-as-he-has-been-warned-to-do (sub-text: threatened with immediate bedtime or other drastic punishment), "Mom...um...how much do I have to eat??"<br />
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Before I could oh so justifiably hit the red button on my full-scale pity party, I had an inconvenient memory.<br />
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I remembered feeling like I should help cook or clean up, and going to the back of the church, to the pastor's home, only to find that these women had cooked for over 100 children with no stove. No sink. No counter. No food processor. No visible appliance of any kind. Just an open fire, backbreaking work for hours, and an intense desire to physically feed and spiritually nourish the children in their community.<br />
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There is a great accountability in knowing. Once you have seen and known, you cannot pretend that you don't know. You have a choice to forget, to shove aside what you have seen, or to remember and choose to be incredibly grateful for what you used to take for granted. After nearly four years here, there are too many things to begin to count for which I can never complain about again. And while yes, sometimes that is annoyingly inconvenient, in reality it is a gift. I don't want to be the same as before.<br />
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So, tonight, as my family sits down to (what I think is) a delicious dinner of pasta and salad and then wakes up to warm pumpkin bread, I will remember that there is a woman out there, just up the mountain, who is cooking over an open fire a very simple meal for her family. And I will choose to be grateful for my beautiful kitchen, the laughter (and yes, arguments) of my children, and the reminder that I have no need to worry about tomorrow. I have more than enough for today.Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-51055538330029515852011-12-28T21:09:00.002-05:002011-12-28T21:09:33.632-05:00Do Re MiI have heard it from enough people now that I believe it is an empirically proven fact: Moms who play the piano should not actually TEACH their children to play the piano. <div>
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Ugh. I took great pride in the fact that this could not be true for me at least....that I could certainly save our family a lot of running around and a lot of money by simply teaching my children the "Good Boys Do Fine Always" rules. And the rests. And the half notes. And the scales. </div>
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Apparently, in this case, as in many others, I do not rise above the rules and laws of nature. I get much too distracted during their practice times when I hear a wrong note. It is much too difficult to NOT stop and correct said note. I'm sure my mother never struggled with this. After all, she just listened to me practice, blissfully unaware of what things should have been sharped and which should have been flatted. To this day, she swears she loved to hear me practice. </div>
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There was a bit of poetic justice recently when, upon hearing me bang out some old Baptist offertory arrangements on my parents' piano (fyi the Baptists like their songs loud and full of arpeggios and glissandos...more amens that way) my youngest son commented..."Wow. I didn't know my mom could play the piano so good." </div>
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Amen, brother. Amen. Now go practice your scales. And I'll ignore that missed note. Just this once. </div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-46416841061397555172011-12-27T19:54:00.000-05:002011-12-27T19:54:12.692-05:00Dear PublixDear Publix,<br />
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I need to apologize to you. Because...oh....lo these many years I have taken you for granted. Your clean, brightly-lit wide aisles. Your ability to stock when customers are NOT in the store. Your always possessing such apparently exotic items such as sour cream. And popcorn. Your paper-or-plastic bags for which I did not have to pay. Your carrying my groceries to my car WITHOUT asking for money. Your free bagging. Your pleasantries...hello, goodbye, have a nice day.<br />
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Oh dear, sweet Publix. I will never take you for granted again. And while I acknowledge that yes, my Bodegona (aka grocery store) is far better than it was a few years ago..from what I hear, people needed to wear closed-toe shoes in the past in order to avoid feeling the rats running across their feet....I miss your generic ice-cream that rivaled Breyer's and Edy's. And I miss the helpful workers in the ugly green vests. And I miss the free balloons and cookies. Oh. Yeah. That was for my kids. I digress....<br />
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To sum up: while I miss shopping at the place where I never truly appreciated that "shopping is a pleasure," I will choose to be grateful today that my dear old Bode DID have sour cream....and DID have the eggnog that my teenage son requested....and that I DID have everything I needed to make a nutritious dinner for my family.<br />
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But next time I'm back in Florida.....Publix Moose Tracks Premium Ice Cream is at the top of my list. And I'll take it in a plastic bag. Just because I can.<br />
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<br />Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-1808630936237014232011-11-13T17:59:00.001-05:002011-11-14T07:18:05.007-05:00Looking BackOur family has the somewhat schmaltzy tradition of taking time, each child's birthday, to look back at the photos and videos of the day he or she was born.<br />
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Let's be clear that I instituted this tradition, and I am also the only one who tears up each time.<br />
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We recently celebrated the birthdays of Nate and Jackson, and we oohed and aahed our way through the moments they first met the world and the moments they first met their siblings and the moments where they muttered unintelligible words. Side note: I am amazed by my linguistic abilities in the past. Toddler-speak is much more difficult than Spanish!<br />
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I digress. In the weeks leading up to our move to Guatemala 3 1/2 years ago, Steve spent hours transferring our home movies and pictures to our computers. I spent hours this week going through them, and my heart simply welled up.<br />
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First, I asked myself HOW I could possibly be the parent of three such beautiful children when, inside, I still feel like I have the maturity of a 20 year old? Surely, somebody is going to knock on my door and say, "Thanks for babysitting. I'll take them home now!"<br />
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Second, nobody, and I mean noooobody looks good in the days and weeks after having a baby. Husbands and family should be required to sign an agreement that, upon punishment of death, they will photoshop said photos.<br />
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Third, and the real point here is this: sometimes I have avoided looking back at old pictures because, let's face it, life is messy. Not all memories are sweet. Some aren't even bittersweet. They're downright painful. So it's easier just to choose to ignore the memories altogether. But, when I sifted through those old photos this week, I was reminded again of what a rich and amazing life I've had so far in my 38ish years, of what laughs and antics I've performed trying to get kiddos to smile for a photo, of the tiredness and zombieness of having 3 kids under the age of 5, of the sheer joy of FINALLY getting that baby to laugh WHILE the video camera is rolling! The trips, the Christmases, the simple moments of playing in the backyard and drinking from the hose. The books we've read, the people we've come to treasure, the fashions we've thought looked good!<br />
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Life hasn't always made sense, but it has been rich in love, in family, in friendships....and it's even been adventurous at times!<br />
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God reminded his people to remember, to look back at the blessings and the miracles he'd performed. I'm sure not all of their memories were good either, but if they reminded each other of the gifts and miracles in their lives, they could travel farther and stronger and be encouraged together.<br />
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So today I look back with a full heart. Life is never perfect, no matter what our Facebook statuses sometimes say. But we can remember how far we have come and how many new memories and photos are still ahead.<br />
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In the meantime, I have to go break up an argument in the backyard over who is winning in the Nerf battle. But maybe I'll take a photo first. Just to remember.<br />
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The biggest constant in my life, in most lives..is change. And I'm fighting it hard right now. I find comfort in sameness, in routine. But when that is all blown to smithereens, as stressful and difficult as that is, it is a reminder that whatever I thought I controlled, I don't. Nope. Not even a little bit. It's humbling and reviving at the same time. And I'll probably forget it again tomorrow, but then there's that grace thing again. I want to live in it, wallow in it, love like crazy with it. </div>
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So even if I never do feel like the grown-up I should be, at least I am certain of one thing....I will experience another challenge, another change tomorrow. Maybe tonight! And I can cling to that grace to be a little stronger this time, a little more mature....a step more than the toddler stage. Maybe even a preschooler. Grace and peace.</div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-16003469124784766122011-06-29T21:32:00.001-04:002011-06-29T21:33:07.541-04:00Grace<i>Sometimes you read something that slaps you upside the head, turns you upside down, and shakes you. Man. I hate it when that happens. So this is what I read the other day:</i><br />
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Our family went to a beach here in Guate for a little R&R. We were blessed by friends to stay at a lovely resort and just relax for a few days. One night, we went to the hotel's restaurant for the buffet dinner and noticed a table full of American men near us. Now. My husband graduated from the Air Force Academy and spent several years as an AF officer, so he can pretty much spot a military man or woman from 80 paces. He knew immediately that these men were military.<br />
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We didn't see them again until the day we checked out. They happened to be checking out at the same time, and Steve approached them. He made small talk and mentioned that he'd been in the Air Force. True to military form, they ribbed him and told him they were sorry he'd been in that particular branch and then told him they were in Guatemala for some training. There was more small talk, during which they revealed nothing specific about their training, and, at the end of our time in the lobby, Steve thanked them for their service to our country. It was then that one of the guys really opened up and told us that, indeed, their duty had cost them each greatly. He told us that most, if not all, of the men in his group were divorced or nearly divorced. He explained that they were gone from their families for most of the year.<br />
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It was a very sobering reminder of just how much our military sacrifices for us. And a reminder that the United States, despite all of the flaws that are constantly pointed out to us by the talking heads on TV, is a country that has always been known as a country willing to sacrifice for the greater good.<br />
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There is nothing like living in another country to give you perspective on just how unique America is. We are willing to fight for those who don't have a voice, to defend the weak, to pursue justice to its end....sometimes to a fault....and why? Because sometimes individual people sacrifice their rights and, often even their lives for the greater good.<br />
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It has taken living in a "survival-driven" society, a society in which people have been taught to look out for themselves, a society in which daily needs like food and a place to sleep are very real worries to teach me just how blessed we as Americans are.<br />
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But working for the greater good isn't merely an option or a nice choice for us:<br />
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I am so thankful for the United States, so thankful for a heritage we have of sacrificing for others. And hopeful that we will never take it for granted again.<br />
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That whatever work I did behind the scenes as a support officer would save lives in battle.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Only a 2 hour plane ride from where I served in the military, Guatemala was in the last 2 years of a 36 year civil war. 200,000 civilians were murdered. The government committed horrible war crimes... through its military.</span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Tonight I came home to find a neighbor with one of his relatives waiting by my front porch with a letter in his hand. They asked if I could help them translate a letter. I was tired, hungry, and frankly, a bit annoyed to hear that the man needed it to be finished within an hour. I asked if I could eat dinner with my family and have it ready in two hours. He agreed to wait, and I agreed to help. </span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"></span><br /><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Here is an excerpt of the letter, with his name removed for confidentiality:</span><div><span class="Apple-style-span"></span><span class="Apple-style-span"><span class="Apple-style-span" ><br /></span></span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"> <blockquote>To Whom it may concern:</blockquote><blockquote>.... I served in the Guatemalan military during the Guatemalan Civil War, in which the military committed many crimes against humanity. On January 6<sup>th</sup>, 1996, I deserted the military, due to direct orders contrary to my conscience, which were intended to cause harm to defenseless civilians. Specifically, we were ordered to patrol at night for unsuspecting youth, capture them, and force them into military service against their will.</blockquote><blockquote>On the 9<sup>th</sup> of January, 1996, I left for the <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">United States</st1:country-region></st1:place> where I found gainful employment. On May 7<sup>th</sup>, 2002, I crossed the border of the <st1:country-region st="on">United States</st1:country-region> near <st1:city st="on">Detroit</st1:city>, <st1:state st="on">Michigan</st1:state>, and entered <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Canada</st1:place></st1:country-region> (through Winsor) to seek refuge.</blockquote><blockquote>I sought refuge in <st1:country-region st="on"><st1:place st="on">Canada</st1:place></st1:country-region> because I was afraid of the cruel punishment and reprisals that the Guatemalan military intended to make against me because I deserted. The reputation of the Guatemalan military was that it always hunted down and punished deserters....</blockquote><div><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>Injustice. Most of the world suffers terribly from governments, politicians, or employers who oppress and take advantage of those they are supposed to serve.<br /><br />However, justice is not just a right as an American or a Christian. It's a responsibility we have as human beings, to defend others who are too weak to do it for themselves. We snooze through our history classes, we chafe in the politically correct corporate training courses. We gloss over it when Jesus commands it. We become too bothered, too busy, too bored, to care.<br /><br />I was almost too busy to help this man. Afterwards, he asked me how much he owed me for translating, and I was speechless. He had already paid me. He had given me an appreciation for something that I had assumed was normal, universal, my right, everyone's right. An appreciation and a reminder of something I have taken for granted for too long.</span></div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-49872690187569791822011-01-20T20:20:00.001-05:002011-01-20T20:26:05.050-05:00GratitudeInstead of starting out the new year with a list of resolutions that are destined to make me feel like a failure before I turn the calendar page to February, I am resolving to live a year of gratitude, a year of being thankful for the astounding number of gifts in my life.<br />
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</div><div>Gratitude for the chance to experience life in a different country. Along with its challenges and frustrations, it also gives me a new perspective and appreciation that I don't think I could obtain any other way.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Gratitude for our health, for the wealth of food in our kitchen, for the comforts of our home that we take for granted over and over again.<br />
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Gratitude for the intangible things...the way God is changing and sifting and growing my heart, giving me new desires and new dreams.<br />
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Gratitude for the chance, every now and then, to get a glimpse of lessons taking root....those things that I have taught my children, the whole time wondering if the words were even being heard. To see the seedlings pushing their way up through the soil is perhaps the most beautiful thing I could ever witness.<br />
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Gratitude for a multitude of things. Many more things than those frustrating, and yes, let's be honest, often discouraging and disheartening things that I routinely choose to focus on. That's the key anyway. To choose. I am old enough and cynical enough to know that I will fail at that choice quite often in this new year and will throw myself one amazing pity party. But I can get up the next morning and clean up the wreck of that party and choose again.<br />
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To be grateful.<br />
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</div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-46640542852694229812011-01-09T21:34:00.004-05:002011-01-16T21:59:14.345-05:00"Tortillas and Coffee as Baby Food?"<img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border="0" width="0" height="0" src="http://c.gigcount.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bHQ9MTI5NDYyNjgzMzA2NSZwdD*xMjk*NjI2ODg4NTc5JnA9MTI1ODQxMSZkPUFCQ*5ld3NfU*ZQX*xvY2tlX*VtYmVkJm49Ymxv/Z2dlciZnPTImbz*wYzRkMmYxMmQ4Y2I*YTQ2OTQ2MDRkMTFjZDg1NGE2ZSZvZj*w.gif" /><div><span class="Apple-style-span">Video: ABC News Special on Malnutrition in Guatemala </span></div><div><br /><object classid="clsid:D27CDB6E-AE6D-11cf-96B8-444553540000" codebase="http://download.macromedia.com/pub/shockwave/cabs/flash/swflash.cab#version=9,0,124,0" width="344" height="278" id="ABCESNWID"><param name="movie" value="http://abcnews.go.com/assets/player/walt2.6/flash/SFP_Walt_2_65.swf"><param name="quality" value="high"><param name="allowScriptAccess" value="always"><param name="allowNetworking" value="all"><param name="flashvars" value="configUrl=http://abcnews.go.com/video/sfp/embedPlayerConfig&configId=406732&clipId=12428162&showId=12569685&gig_lt=1294626833065&gig_pt=1294626888579&gig_g=2&gig_n=blogger"><param name="allowfullscreen" value="true"><embed src="http://abcnews.go.com/assets/player/walt2.6/flash/SFP_Walt_2_65.swf" quality="high" allowscriptaccess="always" allownetworking="all" allowfullscreen="true" pluginspage="http://www.adobe.com/shockwave/download/download.cgi?P1_Prod_Version=ShockwaveFlash" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="344" height="278" flashvars="configUrl=http://abcnews.go.com/video/sfp/embedPlayerConfig&configId=406732&clipId=12428162&showId=12569685&gig_lt=1294626833065&gig_pt=1294626888579&gig_g=2&gig_n=blogger" name="ABCESNWID"></embed></object></div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-32491561295904920302010-11-11T17:17:00.000-05:002010-11-11T17:17:38.315-05:00ExpectationsSeveral months ago, someone gave us very good advice. "Don't bash the country you are living in," they told us. "Especially in front of your children."<br />
Now, this might not sound like a big deal, or might not seem that it would be difficult advice to follow. It is.<br />
No matter where we live, we are still very American. We are American in our thinking, our way of getting things done, in our expectations, and that can cause quite a bit of stress in our daily interactions.<br />
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We expect to order something and have it arrive on time, from little things like food to big things like construction materials for team projects.<br />
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We expect to be able to go to an ATM and get out cash.<br />
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We expect to pay the same price for vegetables that the person next to us is paying.<br />
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We expect to have the customer service we'd find at say, a Target store.....things like employees offering to help find something, or opening another register instead of requiring people to wait in line for 45 minutes, or not stocking shelves in the busiest part of the day in a 3 foot wide aisle.<br />
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Difficult? You bet. There are times that we complain and whine about how things are messed up. And yet, when we stop, take a breath and remind ourselves that people are mainly trying to survive, to get through the day, it changes our perspective and gives us a bit more patience.<br />
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Now, we're not perfect at this. Far from it. I still haven't gotten used to riding the chicken bus and having my foot stepped on 14 times or being shoved out of the way in the market, but at least I don't take it personally anymore. Well, mostly.<br />
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My wish is that, one day, when we move from Guatemala, whether it's to the States or to another place, we will be able to hold onto the lessons we're learning here, that we'll never adopt a sense of entitlement or superiority, and that we'll remember to look behind the differences and see the similarities....that people are people, with the same hurts and desires and hopes, no matter where they live, that we will consciously choose to look for the good in people.<br />
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Another good friend gave us more valuable advice. She told us to remind ourselves that, "It's not wrong, it's just different." So, on those really crazy days when we are tempted to see everything in a negative light, we repeat that phrase.<br />
A lot.<br />
And sometimes even out loud in the middle of that so-very-unlike-Target store. Until we can say it and mean it.Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-10297771768661449612010-10-17T09:25:00.000-04:002010-10-17T09:25:39.758-04:00Happy Birthday, Nate!It was the perfect fall night.<br />
The stereotypical fall night, actually. The smell of woodsmoke, the crisp air, the changing leaves. And it was the night that I realized that my life would never be the same.<br />
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A week earlier, I had given birth to a 9 1/2 pound baby boy. Now, my whole pregnancy had progressed perfectly. No problems, no worries. Until the end, when things just started to seem "off" and I began going in more often for monitoring. This normally would not have been a huge cause for alarm bells to go off in my head, but, tragically, two of our friends had lost babies very close to their due dates, and so I began to worry. A lot. I began to obsess with getting my baby born, healthy and whole. I knew if I could just make sure he made it through delivery o.k, then I could breathe a sigh of relief and all would be back to normal.<br />
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Wow. I really had no clue what was about to become of my peaceful little in-control world.<br />
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First of all, nothing went as planned for the delivery. Nothing. I had imagined some scene out of a movie where I'd be looking spectacular, with freshly-applied lipstick and perfect hair. Perhaps my mom or Steve would be blotting my face and bringing me sips of water. Yep. None of that really happened. I know my mom and Steve were fabulous during the whole ordeal, but I clearly did NOT look amazing and I did NOT have the storybook moment of bonding and happy-crying and holding my baby immediately. Instead, 36 hours into labor, we made the difficult decision to have a c-section, and then our son was born blue and unresponsive.<br />
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All I remember was thinking, "This is not happening. There is no way that he is not going to be ok!" I kept sending Steve over to check on him, and I know now that he was trying to comfort me, because he kept coming back to tell me that, "He's fine!" when, in fact, he wasn't.<br />
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I didn't get to hold him until that night, and although he was covered with alarms, wires and had an I.V. stuck into his little arm, he was beautiful, and I marveled at the fact that he belonged to us.<br />
We were very blessed, because our story ended well and happy after that initial week in ICU, and I know that others don't have that happy ending.<br />
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I think it was this understanding that gripped me on that perfect fall night. We'd left Nathan home with my mom so we could take a stroll, just Steve and I. And that's when I began to panic. I'd been banking on the fact that, once he was born, I wouldn't worry about him like I had when I'd been the only person who could care for him, and now I was shocked and actually scared to realize that my heart had been laid wide open by this little person, and that we were totally, utterly responsible for him. I was scared to death.<br />
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And yet, somehow, here we are 12 years later. Miraculously, he is healthy, well, happy, strong, and one of the most amazing people I know. When I say it is by the grace of God, I don't exaggerate. We have walked (and sometimes been dragged!) through some heavy stuff, and so we don't take a thing like a birthday for granted. We celebrate like crazy people, because we know just how blessed we are to have each other.<br />
And really, isn't this how life is? Things rarely turn out the way we envisioned....college, job, marriage, parenthood, you name it.<br />
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The challenge is whether we get stuck in the "what if's," the "I-can't-believe-this-is-my-life" pity party, or whether we believe that there is a Greater Love, a greater plan, a greater hope.<br />
And even if there are still difficult times ahead, and even if it still doesn't turn out the way we'd wanted, we don't have to waste today worrying. We can just take a breath, enjoy, and choose to be grateful.<br />
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If I could go back and talk to that very young, very scared new mom, I'd tell her that she would not believe how ridiculously fast the years would pass, how many things she would wish she'd cherished along the way, and how, no matter what, it was all going to be o.k.<br />
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Then I'd tell her to throw her hands up, let go, and enjoy the ride.<br />
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Happy Birthday, Nathan!Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-59066064264893182492010-09-26T18:58:00.004-04:002010-09-26T20:49:02.349-04:00El Es El Camino - He is the Way<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 11px;">This is the official name for the new community built for 12 of the families who lost their homes in Agatha. No less than 5 different churches have worked together to clear land, dig ditches, and build 6 homes from July through September.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 11px;"><br />
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</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 11px;">We expect the remaining 6 homes to be built by the end of October, and remaining infrastructure (bathrooms, kitchens, electricity, etc.) should be completed by the end of the year. But, it's also about building relationships. </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 11px;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; line-height: 11px;">Here are a few photos of the outreach opportunities with the families impacted by the storms.</span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">South Tulsa Baptist Church shares their morning devotions with over a dozen workers from the city of Pastores.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Pastor Ted Shares the Gospel with 10 of the 12 families who will receive houses. The mayor of Pastores is reading his copy of the Bible (one was handed to each family and worker), and Abner (Steve's co-worker) helps translate.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">A Pastores worker reads his new Bible during his break.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Some of the young construction workers show their new Bibles.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">The families visited their new homes (that were in the process of being built), and were also given baskets of clothes and food as a house-warming gift.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Steve with Abner and Mayor Miguel Lopez of Pastores.</td></tr>
</tbody></table>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-78925444592666284852010-09-26T18:51:00.001-04:002010-09-26T20:49:20.334-04:00Storms, Slides, Statistics & Surprises<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 11px;">Three tropical storms since June have caused hundreds of major landslides in Guatemala leaving: 175+ dead, 10,000 evacuated and 40,000 homeless. Even as we write, rain pours from Tropical Storm Matthew and we receive double the normal rainfall this year. Vital crops are failing, hunger and disease loom.</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 11px;"><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 11px;">Hopelessness... helplessness. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 11px;">This is the state of mind of many in Guatemala. </span><br />
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</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 11px;">We are blessed to have a church focused on the broken-hearted, and our goal is to meet needs to heal both physical and spiritual needs. Many like-minded churches have joined us this year to turn hopeless situations into incredible opportunities to showcase God's love and power.</span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: small; line-height: 11px;">In spite of the obstacles, many Christians have arrived to share laughter, friendship, hard work, and encouragement. </span><br />
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<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-family: "trebuchet ms", helvetica, sans-serif;"><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-size: small; line-height: 11px;"><u>Here are a few pictures of the devastation only 5 miles from where we live. </u> </span></span><br />
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Pastor Tim and Jeanette in front of a home destroyed. The family will be re-located to the new homes being built.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">One of the families who lost everything from the storm and are being re-located. Calvary Baptist Church of Winter Haven spent an hour with this family, distributing clothing and sharing the Gospel in addition to building a new home for them.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">We shared God's love last week with men from a homeless shelter.</td></tr>
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<tr><td class="tr-caption" style="text-align: center;">Pastor Ted from South Tulsa Baptist Church and Pastor Mike visited another pastor and his family near Antigua to find opportunities to help their church on future team visits.</td></tr>
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</span>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-74483088718051884232010-09-18T16:34:00.000-04:002010-09-18T16:34:01.285-04:00Everything I Need to Know I Learned From My KidsBefore I became a mom, I used to think of myself as a pretty intelligent person. Little did I know. Now, every day, multiple times a day, I am asked questions to which I have no. earthly. idea what the answer could possibly be. Why, oh why didn't I pay more attention in science class? Or history class....or math class for that matter. <div>Thank goodness for Google and Wikipedia. They save my pride more times than I care to admit.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Other than the prolific amount of academic minutiae I am re-learning with my kids, there are emotional and spiritual lessons to be had, too, and so many ways that I realize I have grown up way too much and need to remember some simple, childlike qualities, such as...</div><div><br />
</div><div>Forgiveness. It always amazes me how kids are so quick to forgive. You apologize, and they are over it. And then later, when motivated by the ever-present "Mom Guilt," you re-apologize, you are bound to hear, "Mom, you already said you were sorry." Oh yeah. I did. And I guess I really am forgiven. Amazing.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Wonder. I used to walk down the street and be grossed out by insects, snakes, and rodents. Not anymore. They are now a stimulus for examination, discovery and discussion. That roly-poly? I used to find it annoying. Now when I see it crawling across my floor, I know I have to call in the kids, because someone is bound to want to hold it for awhile. The other day, I saw a 6 foot long snake when I was out running. My jumping-up-into-my throat heart was thankful it was dead, but my next thought was how I wished I could take it home to the kids, and how they would love to check it out. What on earth has happened to me!?</div><div><br />
</div><div>Laughter. My kids recently informed me that children laugh hundreds of times a day, and that adults only laugh a few. It's so true. I want to adopt their attitude of finding humor and joy in every little thing, from blowing bubblegum until it pops all over your face to going down a slide into a freezing cold pool and not minding a bit. The things that I find passe, they find exhilarating. This was never more clear to me than when Jack and I were going through security at the airport and he kept asking me WHEN we got to take our shoes off, because that was "his favorite part." Really?? Never would have crossed my mind to find fun in that before, but now I certainly will.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Appreciation. When the power goes out, as it did last night, I get frustrated. For my kids, it is a chance to build pillow forts in the living room and snuggle up in them with a book and a flashlight. There's no distraction from a computer or a movie. It's simply time to be together and maybe even take advantage of the darkness to see how much brighter the stars appear.</div><div><br />
</div><div>Love. I was always told that there is no love like the one you have for your children, and while that is more true than I ever could have dreamed, no one prepared me for the love that they give in return...</div><div><br />
</div><div> Unconditional. Never, ever concerned with how I look....they could care less about that. </div><div><br />
</div><div>Uninhibited. There is never a shortage of hugs and sloppy kisses and "I love you's."</div><div><br />
</div><div>Unquestioned. They never agonize over how they feel. We love each other, and that is it.</div><div><br />
</div><div>So, I don't think I'll let today go by without a little extra squeeze for my kiddos, and maybe a stroll down the street for some ice cream. Just because. Oh yeah. And that cricket that kept me awake last night? Maybe I won't mush it when I find it. Maybe I'll share the wonder over it, just a little.</div><div><br />
</div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-26572139201979729862010-09-12T23:06:00.000-04:002010-09-12T23:06:12.658-04:00GrandparentsI realized, only by looking at my calendar, that it was Grandparents' Day today. This is not a holiday that is celebrated in Guatemala, and I don't remember it being a big deal when I lived in the U.S. However, I felt very sentimental this morning, because it was a reminder to me that I only have one grandparent left. And it was also a reminder that I have been blessed to have so many happy memories of my grandparents. Because of that, I do believe I am an expert in what makes a Good Grandparent, and so.....here is the definitive list (or, in any case, my opinion)<br />
A Good Grandparent always shows (or feigns) interest in whatever topic a grandchild wishes to discuss. One must be prepared, because this could encompass any topic, from the ever-so-enthralling detail of what said grandchild ate for breakfast, to the origin of black holes, to the question of which is the most dangerous animal on the planet.<br />
A Good Grandparent delights in serving nutritious, delicious meals to his/her grandchild. The meal usually consists of an icee composed of sugar and red dye #2, washed down with a Mountain Dew. For balance, you see.<br />
A Good Grandparent is an expert in the art of good-night storytelling. The story must be exciting, adventurous, and yet, at the same time, devoid of anything scary or nightmare-inducing.<br />
A Good Grandparent never tires of answering questions, especially those that begin with, "Why?"<br />
A Good Grandparent can make up, er...I mean, accurately recite, stories from his or her childhood in which he or she always ends up being the hero.<br />
A Good Grandparent keeps toys and books around, even though she may not see her grandchildren for months.....just in case.<br />
A Good Grandparent is never too busy to put down an all-important project in order to dance to a song, or drive down the road to see a horse, or listen to a silly knock-knock joke and pretend NOT to know the answer.<br />
A Good Grandparent makes a grandchild feel like he is the most interesting person he has ever met, and that nothing could be more exciting than what they are doing together at that moment.<br />
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I am incredibly blessed to have had grandparents who gave me a rich treasury of memories, and even more so to have parents and in-laws who are giving my children the same gift.<br />
Happy Grandparents' Day indeed.Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-37230647176605651732010-08-13T19:31:00.000-04:002010-08-13T19:31:50.686-04:00Beach adventure: Life in Guatemala!Well, my latest adventure was when I went to the beach. First, I played in the pool at the beach with the team. Second, we went on the beach. I made sand-castles, swam in the waves,<i>and</i> rode a <b> <i>ATV<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-weight: normal;">!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"> It was </span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">awesome!</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"> Mr. Ric and I got chased by some dogs-</span><span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: red;">twice!<span class="Apple-style-span" style="font-style: normal;"> <span class="Apple-style-span" style="color: black;">Then Pastor Andrew's <b>ATV </b><i>died!</i></span></span></span></span></i></b><br />
( it means it wouldn't go anymore)! So we went to get help. We told the life guard, who went there.<br />
He fixed it, and we returned the <b>ATV</b>'<b>s</b>. I'm riding the <b>ATV </b>with Mr. Rick in the picture!<br />
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</i></span></span></span></span></i></b>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1042226079328867802.post-78243696649595330682010-07-26T23:49:00.001-04:002010-07-26T23:58:23.927-04:00A Major Step...<span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">It's not very often that you can step back and get one of life's bigger perspectives. </span><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">This weekend we had one of those. </span><div><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">After 2+ years of coordinating teams from the United States to help the hurting, forge new relationships, and spread the Gospel here in Antigua, Guatemala, we had the opportunity to do just that again. But, this time it was at a whole new level... without teams... and mostly our own church. It all started a few weeks ago when some local students approached our church to ask for help organizing some event details, and, through that relationship, they invited us to present the Gospel at the clinic. </span><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">Wow!</span><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">This kind of stuff doesn't happen every day. A group of over 20 volunteers from our church quickly mobilized to share games, face-painting, coloring, testimonies, music, and children's Evangicubes to clearly share the Gospel. Over 70 families were seen by the doctor, and over 70 families heard about the Great Physician. </span><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">One of the Police Chaplains prayed with each family as they left the doctor's office, and o</span><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">ne person accepted Christ. Incredible!</span><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;">This was also an event that our whole family got involved in for several hours, and it was a great opportunity to get perspective on why we're here... one person at a time.</span><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;"><br /></span><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTL7zLKKoFIh_FByWy0I9x2z7axgxM_voNZMT4BS5Nbb9OCmHAi0Z25qdeIFUlOi2EkQBFZl9UQ-z2GgROVPCJYBUkEg1JwLk8y_mOPiAHZsbCHYXMP1DQYNpJKDFVOIFyylsOiQjTM74/s1600/family.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTL7zLKKoFIh_FByWy0I9x2z7axgxM_voNZMT4BS5Nbb9OCmHAi0Z25qdeIFUlOi2EkQBFZl9UQ-z2GgROVPCJYBUkEg1JwLk8y_mOPiAHZsbCHYXMP1DQYNpJKDFVOIFyylsOiQjTM74/s200/family.jpg" width="200" /></a></div><br /><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh84WDC7BplovYTI1L-VLuQKOx0dH-Ihu2Gg8PM8i6Cu3A8qoN_eggOPnnk3UVa12arhMjua9vOW_VRSxASFlvKoVW4eETBDqNAlSWqqslyozIGKWYZWKbSUH2snj4ayFdHgU11HXi0Mtc/s1600/clown.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="150" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh84WDC7BplovYTI1L-VLuQKOx0dH-Ihu2Gg8PM8i6Cu3A8qoN_eggOPnnk3UVa12arhMjua9vOW_VRSxASFlvKoVW4eETBDqNAlSWqqslyozIGKWYZWKbSUH2snj4ayFdHgU11HXi0Mtc/s200/clown.jpg" width="200" /></a><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVXR4xLsYIKWgsfbA78snXgS1-bJNvS29xN9DUNZPhGS57C4aknnlAOBNJhFvzoN7MTOknB5qLQWug01nFGXCq_3UWhXPcC8IzMt8uEg21Aq9RA0AVtTTZjtmMj4pGr4t5At-9Gj33Pjw/s1600/chaplain.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="155" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVXR4xLsYIKWgsfbA78snXgS1-bJNvS29xN9DUNZPhGS57C4aknnlAOBNJhFvzoN7MTOknB5qLQWug01nFGXCq_3UWhXPcC8IzMt8uEg21Aq9RA0AVtTTZjtmMj4pGr4t5At-9Gj33Pjw/s200/chaplain.jpg" width="200" /></a></div><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcqHXM7c1YvhlHINoLmJbwmQgGRDNehpuL5hello_TZKBz9SFPHYaUxftoLFuen302QL15dBB2w9QbuHIilaPjZaIcocAl4-iHYrMftX7TPBIS4JVI2rygkIstxgrOSG3_2dl1-wne2og/s1600/cube.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: left; float: left; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="151" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhcqHXM7c1YvhlHINoLmJbwmQgGRDNehpuL5hello_TZKBz9SFPHYaUxftoLFuen302QL15dBB2w9QbuHIilaPjZaIcocAl4-iHYrMftX7TPBIS4JVI2rygkIstxgrOSG3_2dl1-wne2og/s200/cube.jpg" width="200" /></a><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;"><br /></span><br /><span style="font-family:'trebuchet ms', geneva;"><br /></span></div>Jessica and Steve Ottohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03965020543391460492noreply@blogger.com1